Er, the 29th~

Hellooo,  YESTERDAY WE WENT TO SIX FLAGS!!!!!!!!! It was the best day of my life, The first ride we went on was Medusa, & then we got in line for sky screamer, we decided it wasn't worth it because they only had doubble seats & we had Sarah with us. I like Sarah, she's nice. Then, I got a funnel cake for 8.99 & shared most of it with Sarah, Leigha had a bite. THEN we went to Kong, waited there for like 2 hours, something happend to the ride & the people there told cheesey jokes. THEEEN, LEIGHA CHICKEND OUT!!! So, me & Sarah went. She dropped her phone on the ride~ So, we got cotton candy & took pictures in the photo booth. When we got out, Cameron & some random kid were there, so Cameron took us to a water ride, Leigha said she wanted to go on. We got SOAKED. I didn't go again, it was geting dark & as soon as I got off the ride, it started raining. I sat at a table, listening to music on my phone while they went again. Then, we went to Panda Express, I ended up gatting pizza because they didn't have my potstickers. We sat down & ate, I was being depressed for being soaking wet & cold. I had Sarah's sweatshirt on & it was wet too, I was shivering tying to eat my pizza~ OH & Cameron had his arm around Leigha on the entire ride. It was pissing me off. So, we ate & walked to the Superman store, they wanted to buy some dry clothes. Leigha got a t-shirt with a cape attached. I got a Medusa keychain & Cameron got a sweatshirt. He offered that sweatshit to Leigha &I almost called him a dick. I should have. BUT THEN, we got churros, I didn't feel like buying a churro,& Leigha wouldn't let me have any of hers, so Cameron gave me a bite of his. THEEEN, we all gathered at the fountain, it was pouring rain by now & I wanted to get on the bus & change. We ended up in the strings bus for like half an hour. THEN out bus FINALLY got there & I changed. We stopped for dinner & I got a taco, from Taco Bell,& a parfait & a soda, from Mcdonnalds. Thennn, we were off~! I listend to my music, my phone ran out of batterey, so then I used Jeanie's mp3 player. Buttt she got sick & clamied it back, SHE WAS LAYING ON ASPEN. But, then Leigha ended up being nice & we listend to her cd player, I ALMOST fell asleep ,but Aspen kept harassing em trying to sleep. Eventually, the bus driver had to put chains on, because it was icy & we were going over the mountains. It was kinda sucky, because when we got back, we found out that we spilled cheese-its allover the place~But, on the trip, I had time to think about alot of things. Like, lately, I've been thinking that I'm udeseving of my boyfriend, because he's popular, lives in a different state e.t.c & I thought that he'd brake up with me & be Usagi's again. But I realised something, if it's true, which I know it is, It'll find a way to keep itself going~& those were my thoughts^^ GOOD BYEEEE~ Btw I have a word press account~~

Feelings that I couldn't quite get out.

AHHHH >.< I started going on Xat again. I can't help but be happy & be drawn back to my husband. Well, I read about some things & I found out he could've & did do MUCH better than me, so I feel weird now. We met again RIGHT after we broke up with our lovers. It was heart breaking for both of us. I guess fate wants us to be together. Wow, I can't believe it took we this long to realise this. I feel like a tard now. Nyeh, I have a head ache. I FOUND MY PHONE. SMASHED IN HALF. & I get to stay home tomorrow & babysit the babies. That's an positive & negitave. Well, I can't help but feel positive nowww.

Er...Oh 5/8/11

I originally got on to tell you all that I'm feeling sickkkkk... But it's 12:24 a.m didn't quite feel like leaving that out,& It's now Mother's Day. I rember the first Mother's day I had when I was alone, It Was Horrible. I got in LOADS of troubble that day. Almost 4 years now. All I rember that day is that we had steaks & artichokes for dinner & I relber sulik-ly comming out of my room & how good it tased... Haha well, it's better not to dwell on the past right~! So, BLEH I feel kinda sick. I just basically threw up a second ago & I was like OMG BLOGGER! I hate Twitter. I think it's because I don't need to know what my friends are doing EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY. Well, when I was at Jeanie's house this weekend, I decided to start watching a bit of Soul Eater with Jeanie. I always get supper bored at her houes, so I figured, why not watch some anime? When she's not doing something, we can watch it together~! But, alas, she has the attention span of a squriel. So, I ended up watching episode 3+ on my own. Right now? I'm just starting ep. 15. We assigned roles. She's Death the Kid, I'm Maka, Jessica it Brea, Jason is reaper-sama, Aspen is my dad or Deathsythe, Jerrylin is Black Star & Ashlee is Tsubaki. Ofcourse, no random hot guys transfer to our school, have seen Soul Eater, like me & Manga, or are willing to join a group of random people who are called a Host Club. Although I did :D So, untill we find Soul, I'm Maka withought Soul. It's not fun when you have an AWESOME part, but nobody to play the supporting role. I find things to be weird with my sister today. She asked me if I had been experiencing with mind-altering drugs. Ofcourse I said no. If I don't date guys who do drugs, smoke, or drink, then why would I join them? She says that I'm not the same person. Duh, different people have different effects on me. Leigha makes me nomal, Jeaine combats that & she's not afaraid to be randomly weird. Nor should I. I just wana be me, get married off, be Hopefully rich, get Aspen tentacle raped & live my life happily married to a non-fat 50%(AT LEAST) cute otaku, & have ONE kid. You know~? I just want the simple life. I want to roam amongst my type, otakus, where we're not judged for who, or what we are...Eh, back to WLO& anime.

5/5/11 IT'S HAPPEND!!!!

It happend....Now I'm signed into my Youtube & Blogger & they're not logging eachother out~!  I found out how awesome I am at slicing strawberrys. I felt like a ninja-samuri mix. I'm gonna get some milk.Ahnnnn~ I rember now why I wanted to be in love SO MUCH. I used to listen to comatose over & over & over again, that's probably how I caught it T^T & Now, I'm listening to it AGAIN. Sigh, where's my white angel~? Well, I think this was triggerd by Chantel & Jacob going out AGAIN. I'm getting quite tired of it. & on top of all of these things, Annie seems to be enging all of these relationships, She's like the grim reaper of relashionships.  She transferd here last year. I Really hate how she ends everything for Jacob & Cameron. She would have broke us up, if she knew about it. Ugh, listening to these rock songs, it sends me into a black hole of memmories, that I thought I'd forgotten. Not quite so fun.I belive that the next anime I watch will be Soul Eater. Yupppppppp~ So, Peace <3

50TH POST AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmmmm, I was originally going to dedicate this post to my hate of beach weddings....But I suppose talking about HOW AWESOME this blog has been is quite worthy also. CAUTION: This part contains trace amounts of fan-girl-ness. So, beginning on how I got to the subject of hating on beach weddings. I was bored, I accidentally set my alarm for 6 PM this morning & stayed home, my laptop ran out of charge & I had left my charger in the living room, not feeling ninja enough, I turned to my phone for an hour or two of entertainment. I was on face book, & the first thing I saw was "*Some random Japanese girl somehow added to my friends* Has take "Who's YOUR Bleach baby daddy?" quiz" Then, out of lack of things to do, I browsed over the answer. My first thought was HOW EMBARRASSING!!! How could she/he post that for all his/her friends to see?! Now, keep in mind, I had been stalking around the Internet, watching free episodes of English subbed K-on! & Was still stuck in Japanese school girl mode(In which, everything makes you blush, weather it's from ADORIBLENESS!!! OR OMG-ness), so, being self explanitory, I was like, OMG WTF?! (Haha sorry, girly moment). So, when I finally snuck out of my window, like a teenage-delinquent, scaring my neighbors,who themselves, are also, I charged my laptop. Alas, I didn't do it until like 6 'o clock. BUT when I finally did, I did it for hours( that's what she said) & the last one I took, I took once, but it had the other answers on it too, for some reason, I figured, Why not~? I read them & One of them said "He proposed to you on the beach", or "You had a beach wedding" It made me cringe honestly.I HATE THEM. You know when you see that commercial for Sandals resort thingy? No? Well, it's these newly weds & they're on  a bed at the beach, the wind in blowing lightly, the canopy flowing with it? UGH!!! I just think of them crawling on that bed getting sand everywhere, it's hot, they get the dress caught on the bed & it rips, some creepy dude that's a "Policeman: Tells you that you need a permit to do this & it's not a nude beach. Doesn't seem that fun to me. When I first started this blog, I wanted to get married SO BADLY, that I'd do it that moment, with almost anybody, if it was legal. But, now, I find myself thinking of it being a HUGE drag~ I have no idea why. I love this blog <3 It's helped me get through pretty much anything that life has thrown at me. Weather it be heart break, hatred, family problems EXTREME FANGIRLNESS, & a heap of other things, that I really don't feel like troubling you with. So, I'm going over to Aspen's house tomorrow, after school. Did you guys hear about Osama being shot?! I think that was wrong. Nobody has the right to take the life of another. No matter what he's done, we're no better than him now. & yet we hear all of these politicians encouraging America to CONTINUE killing people?! I think that we're wrong. We should join together to try to help ourselves out of this 4,000 foot hole that we've dug ourselves in. We should try to help ourselves before we try to help others. I'm sorry, I sound like a roughly translated fortune cookie~ Well, THANK YOU for being with me all 50 posts, I hope you'll stick with me for the next 50 & then on post no.101 I'll say IT'S OVER 100!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHH. Haha yeah, I rabu you guys >U<

Haii~! 4/28/11

I feel SUPPER excited~! Tomorrow I'm going to the mall with Leigha. I went to Aspen's house yesterday. I PRAY he doesn't read this, I MAY, just a tiny tad,smijit,bit like him. Yeah, yeah I know. I didn't tell anyone except you, dear reader. YESH~! I used that. SO since yesterday I've been singing quie a bit, which only happens when I feel REALLY happy, or REALLY SAD, or some other EXTREME emotion. But, HE GROPED ME! He said sorry right after though. Jeanie stole my shoe...Haha we all traded shoes & I asked this random dude if I could borrow his metal dector. I told him it was for eanie to find dildos. SOME LADY TOLD ME & ASPEN TO SHAKE HER BALLS!!!She was playing tennis. Haha I kicked it~ So, we climbed fences, I got stuck on the top of one. I finally decided never to wear flats when we go over to his house & climbed down. I sent a HUGE ammount of forwards~& now I'm texting Chantel. I haven't been hanging out with my NORMAL group of Chantel & Leigha, I'm now part of the Sparks Middle School Host Club. My phone keeps shutting off randomly. It's VERRY ANNOYING. & I have to keep it untill my 16th birthday. THEN I get an I phone. I hate my phone. I just was SO IN LOVE WITH THIS PHONE~! But...not so much anymore...I barely use it.Smooth, get some spicy fries, but forget you water in the kitchen, smooth, Bailey. GOt my water, gonna finish these fries, pack for Leigha's & go to bed~!Haha Aspen is my wall paper, hes humping a wale XD Nightttttt <3

It's those thoughts again 4/22/11

I really feel like I don't have a family anymore. My dad "already has one family issue" & it's now his job to work on his brother's life instead of his family that lives with him. I didn't have anybody, & I got through it. I really don't like how he takes ALL his stress out on us. I really hate that.Like, I was supper hungry & he barged in the kitchen. He piled 4cups of pasta onto his plate,& then went searching for food, he didn't find these french cookies brionne brought home, because me & Jeanie ate them all. It's not like they're irreplacible. She got them from wallmart. Then he was like GOD DAMN IT!!!! so I was just waiting for him to move, at this point, I was cheerfull & happy to see him for the 1-2 time today, & he YELLED at me for waiting for him to move!!Oh Shit. there's a police officer outside....So then he sat down with his t.v tray & started watching. It was a wrong adress b.t.w. They got the adress wrong, there was screaming here...So then he just started stabing the pasta REALLY HARD, like about to break the plate. So, he asked me why I ate all of them. & he just started telling me off, then he was like GO IN YOUR ROOM!!! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU TODAY!!! He didn't even say hi to me when I got home. I swear, Jeanie's house is my home away from "home". & we ended up having a physical confrontation over it. He was trying to pull it away from me! I'm not just some pushover, I am a living breathing human being with feelings, hopes dreams & e.t.c he was like LEAVE YOUR DINNER HERE. SO I slammed it on the table, he has done it thousands of times, why can't I? I mean, if this behavior is propper for a grown adult, then shouldn't it be appropriate for a 14 year old?So, I washed off the plate, sobing at this point. & I put it in the dish washer, went in my room & asked God why the hell he made my life to be like this? I know, hardships make you stronger,harder to break, but I don't want to be the strong one. I want to lean on a friend every once in a while, cry when I want to, not when I need to, even if it's just for  minutes. I'm sorry that I ate all the sweets, but that was the ONLY sweet thing in the house. Excuse me if I have cravings, I can't controll them uopn will.Sigh, that really depressed me. I'm going over to Jeanie's house for Easter, my family dosen't celebrate it anymore. I miss my mother...She did drink, smoke, & have verry bad problems, but I always did love her more than anywone else & I intend it to stay like that. I can't help imagine a time when they wer'nt fighting, all of the family was home,safe,& sober. I HATE tapping into my memmories like this. It brings tears to my eyes & I'm babbysitting. The reason why I cry each time we fight isn't what happend in the fight, but that he's so used to constantly being in a fight with somebody.  I wish he could control his anger better, I don't want him to be that way around the twins. I had my mother to say,"she's only __years old Lee!" But all the babies will have is Brionne, she's so unde his will, it's disgusting. He can kick her out anytime he wants. I garuntee, that I won't last long if it's just me & him. He's actually stand-able when he's not around the presence of others. But if he is, he finds me to be a pesky "teeny boper" I Fucking Hate That. It's like he takes all the things I say the opposite way, like if I'm being serrious, he'll be silly. If I'm being silly, he'll take everything I say & twist it to something that makes me out to be a bully, telling him these fabricated words to make myself feel better. Ugh, I'm done.