Er...Oh 5/8/11

I originally got on to tell you all that I'm feeling sickkkkk... But it's 12:24 a.m didn't quite feel like leaving that out,& It's now Mother's Day. I rember the first Mother's day I had when I was alone, It Was Horrible. I got in LOADS of troubble that day. Almost 4 years now. All I rember that day is that we had steaks & artichokes for dinner & I relber sulik-ly comming out of my room & how good it tased... Haha well, it's better not to dwell on the past right~! So, BLEH I feel kinda sick. I just basically threw up a second ago & I was like OMG BLOGGER! I hate Twitter. I think it's because I don't need to know what my friends are doing EVERY SECOND OF THE DAY. Well, when I was at Jeanie's house this weekend, I decided to start watching a bit of Soul Eater with Jeanie. I always get supper bored at her houes, so I figured, why not watch some anime? When she's not doing something, we can watch it together~! But, alas, she has the attention span of a squriel. So, I ended up watching episode 3+ on my own. Right now? I'm just starting ep. 15. We assigned roles. She's Death the Kid, I'm Maka, Jessica it Brea, Jason is reaper-sama, Aspen is my dad or Deathsythe, Jerrylin is Black Star & Ashlee is Tsubaki. Ofcourse, no random hot guys transfer to our school, have seen Soul Eater, like me & Manga, or are willing to join a group of random people who are called a Host Club. Although I did :D So, untill we find Soul, I'm Maka withought Soul. It's not fun when you have an AWESOME part, but nobody to play the supporting role. I find things to be weird with my sister today. She asked me if I had been experiencing with mind-altering drugs. Ofcourse I said no. If I don't date guys who do drugs, smoke, or drink, then why would I join them? She says that I'm not the same person. Duh, different people have different effects on me. Leigha makes me nomal, Jeaine combats that & she's not afaraid to be randomly weird. Nor should I. I just wana be me, get married off, be Hopefully rich, get Aspen tentacle raped & live my life happily married to a non-fat 50%(AT LEAST) cute otaku, & have ONE kid. You know~? I just want the simple life. I want to roam amongst my type, otakus, where we're not judged for who, or what we are...Eh, back to WLO& anime.

5/5/11 IT'S HAPPEND!!!!

It happend....Now I'm signed into my Youtube & Blogger & they're not logging eachother out~!  I found out how awesome I am at slicing strawberrys. I felt like a ninja-samuri mix. I'm gonna get some milk.Ahnnnn~ I rember now why I wanted to be in love SO MUCH. I used to listen to comatose over & over & over again, that's probably how I caught it T^T & Now, I'm listening to it AGAIN. Sigh, where's my white angel~? Well, I think this was triggerd by Chantel & Jacob going out AGAIN. I'm getting quite tired of it. & on top of all of these things, Annie seems to be enging all of these relationships, She's like the grim reaper of relashionships.  She transferd here last year. I Really hate how she ends everything for Jacob & Cameron. She would have broke us up, if she knew about it. Ugh, listening to these rock songs, it sends me into a black hole of memmories, that I thought I'd forgotten. Not quite so fun.I belive that the next anime I watch will be Soul Eater. Yupppppppp~ So, Peace <3

50TH POST AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmmmm, I was originally going to dedicate this post to my hate of beach weddings....But I suppose talking about HOW AWESOME this blog has been is quite worthy also. CAUTION: This part contains trace amounts of fan-girl-ness. So, beginning on how I got to the subject of hating on beach weddings. I was bored, I accidentally set my alarm for 6 PM this morning & stayed home, my laptop ran out of charge & I had left my charger in the living room, not feeling ninja enough, I turned to my phone for an hour or two of entertainment. I was on face book, & the first thing I saw was "*Some random Japanese girl somehow added to my friends* Has take "Who's YOUR Bleach baby daddy?" quiz" Then, out of lack of things to do, I browsed over the answer. My first thought was HOW EMBARRASSING!!! How could she/he post that for all his/her friends to see?! Now, keep in mind, I had been stalking around the Internet, watching free episodes of English subbed K-on! & Was still stuck in Japanese school girl mode(In which, everything makes you blush, weather it's from ADORIBLENESS!!! OR OMG-ness), so, being self explanitory, I was like, OMG WTF?! (Haha sorry, girly moment). So, when I finally snuck out of my window, like a teenage-delinquent, scaring my neighbors,who themselves, are also, I charged my laptop. Alas, I didn't do it until like 6 'o clock. BUT when I finally did, I did it for hours( that's what she said) & the last one I took, I took once, but it had the other answers on it too, for some reason, I figured, Why not~? I read them & One of them said "He proposed to you on the beach", or "You had a beach wedding" It made me cringe honestly.I HATE THEM. You know when you see that commercial for Sandals resort thingy? No? Well, it's these newly weds & they're on  a bed at the beach, the wind in blowing lightly, the canopy flowing with it? UGH!!! I just think of them crawling on that bed getting sand everywhere, it's hot, they get the dress caught on the bed & it rips, some creepy dude that's a "Policeman: Tells you that you need a permit to do this & it's not a nude beach. Doesn't seem that fun to me. When I first started this blog, I wanted to get married SO BADLY, that I'd do it that moment, with almost anybody, if it was legal. But, now, I find myself thinking of it being a HUGE drag~ I have no idea why. I love this blog <3 It's helped me get through pretty much anything that life has thrown at me. Weather it be heart break, hatred, family problems EXTREME FANGIRLNESS, & a heap of other things, that I really don't feel like troubling you with. So, I'm going over to Aspen's house tomorrow, after school. Did you guys hear about Osama being shot?! I think that was wrong. Nobody has the right to take the life of another. No matter what he's done, we're no better than him now. & yet we hear all of these politicians encouraging America to CONTINUE killing people?! I think that we're wrong. We should join together to try to help ourselves out of this 4,000 foot hole that we've dug ourselves in. We should try to help ourselves before we try to help others. I'm sorry, I sound like a roughly translated fortune cookie~ Well, THANK YOU for being with me all 50 posts, I hope you'll stick with me for the next 50 & then on post no.101 I'll say IT'S OVER 100!!!!!!!!!!!!!AHHHHHHHHHHH. Haha yeah, I rabu you guys >U<

Haii~! 4/28/11

I feel SUPPER excited~! Tomorrow I'm going to the mall with Leigha. I went to Aspen's house yesterday. I PRAY he doesn't read this, I MAY, just a tiny tad,smijit,bit like him. Yeah, yeah I know. I didn't tell anyone except you, dear reader. YESH~! I used that. SO since yesterday I've been singing quie a bit, which only happens when I feel REALLY happy, or REALLY SAD, or some other EXTREME emotion. But, HE GROPED ME! He said sorry right after though. Jeanie stole my shoe...Haha we all traded shoes & I asked this random dude if I could borrow his metal dector. I told him it was for eanie to find dildos. SOME LADY TOLD ME & ASPEN TO SHAKE HER BALLS!!!She was playing tennis. Haha I kicked it~ So, we climbed fences, I got stuck on the top of one. I finally decided never to wear flats when we go over to his house & climbed down. I sent a HUGE ammount of forwards~& now I'm texting Chantel. I haven't been hanging out with my NORMAL group of Chantel & Leigha, I'm now part of the Sparks Middle School Host Club. My phone keeps shutting off randomly. It's VERRY ANNOYING. & I have to keep it untill my 16th birthday. THEN I get an I phone. I hate my phone. I just was SO IN LOVE WITH THIS PHONE~! But...not so much anymore...I barely use it.Smooth, get some spicy fries, but forget you water in the kitchen, smooth, Bailey. GOt my water, gonna finish these fries, pack for Leigha's & go to bed~!Haha Aspen is my wall paper, hes humping a wale XD Nightttttt <3

It's those thoughts again 4/22/11

I really feel like I don't have a family anymore. My dad "already has one family issue" & it's now his job to work on his brother's life instead of his family that lives with him. I didn't have anybody, & I got through it. I really don't like how he takes ALL his stress out on us. I really hate that.Like, I was supper hungry & he barged in the kitchen. He piled 4cups of pasta onto his plate,& then went searching for food, he didn't find these french cookies brionne brought home, because me & Jeanie ate them all. It's not like they're irreplacible. She got them from wallmart. Then he was like GOD DAMN IT!!!! so I was just waiting for him to move, at this point, I was cheerfull & happy to see him for the 1-2 time today, & he YELLED at me for waiting for him to move!!Oh Shit. there's a police officer outside....So then he sat down with his t.v tray & started watching. It was a wrong adress b.t.w. They got the adress wrong, there was screaming here...So then he just started stabing the pasta REALLY HARD, like about to break the plate. So, he asked me why I ate all of them. & he just started telling me off, then he was like GO IN YOUR ROOM!!! I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU TODAY!!! He didn't even say hi to me when I got home. I swear, Jeanie's house is my home away from "home". & we ended up having a physical confrontation over it. He was trying to pull it away from me! I'm not just some pushover, I am a living breathing human being with feelings, hopes dreams & e.t.c he was like LEAVE YOUR DINNER HERE. SO I slammed it on the table, he has done it thousands of times, why can't I? I mean, if this behavior is propper for a grown adult, then shouldn't it be appropriate for a 14 year old?So, I washed off the plate, sobing at this point. & I put it in the dish washer, went in my room & asked God why the hell he made my life to be like this? I know, hardships make you stronger,harder to break, but I don't want to be the strong one. I want to lean on a friend every once in a while, cry when I want to, not when I need to, even if it's just for  minutes. I'm sorry that I ate all the sweets, but that was the ONLY sweet thing in the house. Excuse me if I have cravings, I can't controll them uopn will.Sigh, that really depressed me. I'm going over to Jeanie's house for Easter, my family dosen't celebrate it anymore. I miss my mother...She did drink, smoke, & have verry bad problems, but I always did love her more than anywone else & I intend it to stay like that. I can't help imagine a time when they wer'nt fighting, all of the family was home,safe,& sober. I HATE tapping into my memmories like this. It brings tears to my eyes & I'm babbysitting. The reason why I cry each time we fight isn't what happend in the fight, but that he's so used to constantly being in a fight with somebody.  I wish he could control his anger better, I don't want him to be that way around the twins. I had my mother to say,"she's only __years old Lee!" But all the babies will have is Brionne, she's so unde his will, it's disgusting. He can kick her out anytime he wants. I garuntee, that I won't last long if it's just me & him. He's actually stand-able when he's not around the presence of others. But if he is, he finds me to be a pesky "teeny boper" I Fucking Hate That. It's like he takes all the things I say the opposite way, like if I'm being serrious, he'll be silly. If I'm being silly, he'll take everything I say & twist it to something that makes me out to be a bully, telling him these fabricated words to make myself feel better. Ugh, I'm done.

Herroz~! 4/21/11

Helloooooooo <3
Ugh, mu sister is being SUPPER weird. She's being SO distant. Well, I shouldn't dwell on things...So, today. I got off the bus & we were walking home, Jeanie just sat down on somebody's lawn & then I was like pshhhh why not? So I sat down right next to her. We sat like that for, like half an hour, telling mariah to go home~ Haha we're men, we call her kiwis & yuri XD She kinda deserves it though. Ugh, my sister is crying again, I hate it when she crys...Well, so mariah finally left, & we sat there just....being us I guess. OH one of Susan's friends lent me her glasses <3 they're supper cute <3 They're like nerd glasses. I LOVEEEEE themmmm <333333 & that trent kid keeps making things akaward, that was one of the things that I loved about Anthony, He didn't make things akaward when we talked~But most of the time, I just zone out when I'm around trent. He's just too much. It's not that he's a boy. I just don't like high-matinence sevies... Because, I'm almost done with middle school, I don't want a fight. Hmmmm I wonder if I'm too heart-y~ LEIGHA CANCELD ON ME!!!!!!!!! She also did that at lunch T^T. OH~! I helped Jeanie clean her room~! I think I need to clean my room too.......Well I'll do that later <3 Hahahahahaha OMG me & Jeanie got on ChatRoulette & Omegle, We're gonna do it again tomorrow x3 & go to Virgina Palmer~ I wish I still went to a year round school <3 Hahahahahahah I need an otaku <3~! Well, that's all for me~ I'm gonna eat these (AWESOME cherry honey ricola) cough drops Jeanie gave me, & clean up my roomz~! Night Loveeeeeeee <33333333333

Hey~! April 20th LOL 4/20!!!

Hey world~! I've been sleeping quite crappily lately. Soooo I took a nap yesterday & I slept soooooooo well. I think I should take more naps like this <3 Wellllll, Susan lent me yet another manga & I saw that It was My Faviorite Manga Ever. The one that I read all of last summer at the book store. Haha I rember staying late to read the last volume. I got SO SCHOLDED when I got home >.<( so worth it). Haha I love getting on xat & people are like WHO ARE YOU!? Then, I'm like I'm konan & they're like OH HOW'VE YOU BEEN?!!! I had an AWESOME day. I developed this system. That I call the angel system. Boys who are just kinda side attractions that I kinda like but not quite are black angels, gray angels are boys who I went through a "phase" liking them. Then there's the white angel, the one boy who I'll spend the rest of my life with <3, & lastly there's a cream angel, the one boy who freakin confuses me. No mentions of those who fit in the last two spots. So, the rest of the people in my life are types of angels too. But, they're colored angels. Like Leigha, she's a lime green angel, Chantel is a purple angel. I don't know why, it's just like that. It let's me classify boys & people. Ugh, that boy keeps asking to be my sevie. I DON'T WANT A MALE SEVIE!!! Ugh, he's a brown angel. & the rest of the people who have no connection to me don't have wings, & I decided that he dosen't ethire. & Gari... well Gari's a hot pink angel :3 & Anthony's a gray angel. Hmm...Leigha's comming over on Friday. So I sit behind Jacob in math, he started talking to me & catlin, I was like wtf? He tried to take my pencil & ripped my paper T^T So I was trying to pry him from my pencil & I tore into his skin & I was like awww I'm sorry D: Sp, I'm cutting my nails. He's just a black angel, I'm quite sure that I won't find my shiroi-tenshi in middle school. But I may have, there's a different Jacob, he has alot of health prblems, I originally found him for leigha but... I dunno, At the moment he's just a black angel, nothing more. *Sigh* my dad is sutch a dick. Blah, blah, blah, I just came home, I don't appriciate you telling me that I'm as "dumb as a post". Well I'm gonna get on WLO, babysit for a bit & then, NaP TiMe <3